Tuesday, August 5, 2014

Happy Days Full of Sunshine ©

Cute little puppies and chunky little girls
Daddies full of kindness and
Mommies who'll give you the world

Happy days full of sunshine
playing on my backyard swing
That's what childhood in the city brings

Memories of days gone by
Laughter, hot dogs and Kool Aid
Hot sun shinning, kids sitting in the shade

Red light, green light. Mother may I, freeze tag, hide and seek
Rock teacher, jacks, jump rope, monkey in the middle
That's how memories are made

I can never go back and live that
joyful, happy life again
But I can share it today with my own children

Mommy can I go out and play?
Sure baby, but can I play too?
I have some memories I want to create with you

Happy days full of sunshine

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

It's My Turn ©


I woke up this morning to a new revelation
I am not forgotten
It's been a long time since I dared to chase my dreams
Fell many times but it seems
that falling down is part of the whole scheme of things

Falling ain't hard, but getting up is
And starting all over again
I see my future and I know that I win
Learning to wait and just be still
To hear your voice and walk in your will

I can see farther than my eyes can see
This revelation has totally consumed me
Time...time...time...friend or enemy?
There is a season and a time for all things
When my day comes I'm going to spread my wings
Fly high, soar, reach for the stars
On the other side of the rainbow, I'll even show my scares
It's the place where all things are possible
If you just believe in the promises and get ready for the day
When your dreams come true, there will be no delay

Time and season are the reason for the wait
Me and destiny have a predestined date, I won't be early or late
Woke up this morning to a new revelation...I am not forgotten
There's so much more that God has in store
Just waiting for my turn to soar

I'll Keep Waiting ©

I keep waiting
I keep waiting
Waiting on God to rescue me

I keep waiting
I keep waiting
Waiting on God to rescue me

He promised to help me
He promised to help me
Never to leave or forsake me

So I keep waiting
I keep waiting
Waiting on God to set me free

Abused as a child by the preacher
Neglected by my momma
Beaten by my husband

But I'll keep waiting
I'll keep waiting
Waiting on God to rescue me

Used and abused by men
seemed to be forgotten
But I keep waiting

Second husband worse than the first
sent by God
that really hurts

He promised to reward me for all my pain
and my life will never be the same

So I keep waiting
I keep waiting
Waiting on God to rescue me

Sickly children and poor health
He never left me by myself
Reached out and touched me with his tender hand

So I'll keep waiting
Keep right on waiting
Waiting on God to rescue me

He promised me that if I suffer with him
then I'll reign with him
So I'll keep waiting on the Lord to rescue me

I know after all the suffering and pain
God will show me his plan
he promised me my due season

So I'll keep waiting
I'll keep waiting
Waiting on God to rescue me

All the days of my appointed time
will I wait till my change comes

So I'll keep waiting
Keep right on waiting
Waiting on my change to come

Saturday, July 12, 2014

Change the World ©

Manipulating women and emasculated men
Unhappy marriages and disobedient children

Seems like this kind of behavior makes the world go round
Not what we wanted it's just bringing us down

Working all day and night just like a man
But taking his place was never my plan

Got to do things different to see change
Priorities need to be rearranged

Where did we go wrong?
Forgive us Lord for what we have done

Can't keep this up too long.
We need change

Change the world with love
Only love can change the world

Got to do things different to see change
Priorities need to be rearranged

Need to rearrange our priorities
And change the world with love

Need to rearrange our priorities
And change the world with love

Can't keep this up too long
Change the world with love

Got to do things different to see change
Priorities need to be rearranged

Never Give up on Love ©

If I gave up every time it got too hard
If I ran away from pain
If I quit because nothing went right
or gave in to weariness
Then, I would just give up on love

And never experience your kiss

If I let bitterness eat away on the inside
If I remained angry and chose not to forgive
If I forget to laugh,
and take myself too seriously, refusing to live
Then you would run like hell when you met me

And never experience my kiss

If I learn from the pain of yesterday
If I decide to go on and live anyway
If I dry my tears and grow from the experience
Then I will know in my heart to
Never give up on love

Can't wait to meet you and experience true love's kiss

If you never give up on love
If you wait until it comes again
Then because of your last love, or lost love,
you will know when you find the best love
It's on the way and when it finds you it will stay

If you believe in love,
never give up it's worth the wait
This kind of love you don't want to miss
Can't wait to share our first kiss
'Cause we never gave up on love...

Never give up
Never give up
Never give up on love

Keep Dreaming

There comes a time when nobody believes in you
and you have to walk alone
Because the dream inside of you must remain hidden
until the day, the time, the appointed season

For your dreams to come true
you have to endure the testing of your faith
and remember all the dreams and intuitive thoughts
that brought you to this place

When there is no one else to lean on, or cry to
but you choose to hold on, fight on, continue
Then that small dream begins to come into fruition
And it grows and grows and blooms

It's bigger than you think, because it's your purpose
You were the one who waited in faith, persevered in trials,
longed in secret, and dared to keep dreaming
when it was only a feeling on the inside

And because you held on through all the storms
Your dream like a baby in the womb
pushed its way through until that predestined day
when you stepped into your purpose and your dream was born

You gave birth to your dream
Now is the time to do all you were created to do
Your struggle made you strong enough to see it through
Now you know dreams really do come true

There's so much more, you only scratched the surface
Your best days are ahead of you, more dreams are coming
bigger than the first, because when you had nothing
you dared to believe in one small dream and walk alone

Your lonely days are gone
You passed the tests, it's time to enter into your rest
He saved the best for last,
your latter will be greater than your past


Tuesday, July 8, 2014

Love is

It is the feeling I get when I see a rainbow
It is the song inside my soul when I think about you
It is the sound of birds singing in spring
The sun rising in the morning
It is my daddy's smile when I was a child

It is your touch when our first baby was born
It is the warmth of your caress
with my face upon your chest
Love is all these things and more

It is tenderness, a kind word, a helping hand
Words not spoken but understood
It is the look in your eyes when my heart was broken
Love is all these things and more

It is forgetting the hard times, the hurt and pain
and deciding to start over and live again
Love is more than romance
More than simple pleasure

Love is my choice to care about you
Even after all you put me through
I'm still in love with you
Love is forever

One day I will see you again my friend


Bloom ©

I sit
watching my days like clouds fading
from morning to evening

I sit wondering
where are my 
dreams, my sunbeams of promises?

I think 
who will listen to  my story?
who can I tell...
Someone stole my innocence long, long ago
A small unfolded rosebud sending out aromatic essence of bloom
wandering in the wind

Waiting...not expecting to be handled
Not wanting to be held and cast  aside
Cool winds whispering my name

I watched
as the sun spilled over the horizon
to caress my tender petals

Someone claimed my 
sweet breath too soon 
Fresh days of springtime

I was a spring garden
full of light, cool winds swaying, birds all in harmony
bees buzzing

I ran
so full of
expectancy and ecstasy

I ran
into the face of life
Too young to know what it would bring me
Hot summer days
dogs barking
fear running up my legs ringing loud in my head

I listened to
love songs
love poems
I listened
to soft words with clandestine meanings
Too young to know tender plants need room to bloom

Time to rise and be strong 
Somebody picked me 
when I was just a rosebud

I wonder
Can I grow from here?
Will winter overtake me?
I wonder 
can I be a beautiful rose
in Autumn?
I see crimson tides
peeking over blue horizons
pouring pure light all over me

I feel strong
Sweet, gentle perfume rolls off my
soft velvet petals

Penetrating the amber air
I’m in bloom

Monday, July 7, 2014

After All

After all the drama
after all the tears
I still love you after all these years

After all the days
of laughter and pain
My love for you still remains

When all is done
and my life carries on
I find that there is so much more to love, after all

I gave you all that I had to give
And you still left me
After all

Now I can live
I know there is someone
who will love me

with all my history
Loving you set me free
After all

Free to look a little closer
a little deeper
Inside myself

There I found when love fails
and lonely days turn to lonely nights
I'm still here, after all

True love found me
and set me free
now I know that

Love is good, after all
I found love, after all
I'm alive, after all

To love again, after all


Saturday, July 5, 2014

Black Girl © - Part Two

You see in the garden of Eden when Adam and Eve made the choice
to no longer hearken to God's voice,
their once eternal bodies started to decay.
Only one command had God given to man to obey,
or there would be a price to pay.

Do not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil,
or death will be your consequence.
And every, man, woman, boy and girl
has been born into the death cycle ever since
that fatal day when Adam and Eve began to know, see, and feel
the knowledge of all things good and evil.

The first death experienced by the new born human race
was the murder of Abel the son of Adam and Eve,
by the hands of his twin brother, Cain.
From that day forward the human race would know
sin, sorrow, hatred and shame.
So Adam made love to his wife Eve to ease her pain.

Their son Abel was dead
and Cain to the wilderness had fled
from all who dared to avenge the death of his brother.
At this time men and women lived for hundreds of years
as they married and intermarried to populate the planet.
For God's initial purpose for man still stood in tack.
He created the earth for mankind to dominate.
That's a fact.

Eve conceived and gave birth to another son.
She named him Seth, for now that her godly seed Abel was dead
Seth was given to her by God in his stead.

Now back in the garden when Satan tempted man to sin.
God pronounced a curse upon all men and women.
The woman would be subject to her husband and bring forth children in pain.
And the earth would forever cause man's strength to wane.
By the sweat of your brow will you till the land, it will resist you, until it
brings you down to the ground from whence you came.
For dust you are and to the dust you shall return.

God cursed the earth to bring forth thorns, briers and weeds.
He cursed the serpent that Satan had hidden inside of when he spoke to Eve.
And He cursed Satan for his plan to deceive.
And you, Satan, will be crushed by the woman's seed,
for your part in this dubious deed.
Her seed shall crush your head and you shall bruise his heel.
This curse caused the planet to roll, rock and reel.

Satan set up Principalities in the regions of the air.
and plotted to rule God's creation from his evil lair,
Each Principality had control over appointed regions,
as they controlled men by harassing their souls with demons.
These demons entered the bodies of mankind by legions.
And God's creation became demented, ungodly, wicked indeed,
as Satan tried to contaminate every godly seed.
I must destroy the seed of the woman, for by her seed I am doomed.

So man grew more and more wicked and violent.
Until God looked at man and his condition caused him to repent.
I repent that I ever made man.
But God had a plan.
I will send a flood to destroy the wicked.
And I will repopulate the planet with one godly seed.

Now Noah the descendant of Seth was uncontaminated, upright, godly indeed.
Noah and his wife had three married sons.
So he preached to his wife and children and all who would listen.
Come into the ark because its going to rain
He preached the same message again and again.
And warned all to repent and come into the ark of safety
or bear the wrath of an angry God on that dreadful day when
the flood gates of heaven will open
and pour out a deluge upon the land.

Well you know the story.
Not one soul outside of Noah's family paid him any attention.
They cursed God and Noah and all of his children.
So God sent angels to gather ten of every clean beast in the field
and two of every unclean, male and female.
It was a glorious scene.
When all the animals came into the ark of safety as the flood gates of heaven
were torn open and God cried for fallen man.
Satan watched from his evil lair and laughed and laughed
because he thought he had won.
What Satan didn't realize is that God had a plan to once again restore fallen man.
By sending his Son.

And in the process of time a virgin named Mary
was told by an angel that the savior she would carry.
The seed of the woman who would crush Satan's head.
So Satan plotted and schemed as he yelled to his demons
I want him DEAD!
And Jesus the Son of God died on a cross on Golgotha's hill
His blood was shed and ran down like a mighty stream,
it was all part of God's perfect will.
When Satan and his imps saw it they began to curse and scream.

The blood of Jesus traveled through time and eternity
and its power set the captives free.
As they became son's and daughters of God.
And on the head of the enemy they would trod.

On the third day Jesus was resurrected.
This is certainly not what Satan expected
when he plotted to have him betrayed, beaten and killed.
He had no idea of the harvest the resurrection would yield.
Jesus told his followers to preach the good news until the whole earth was filled
with the knowledge of the glory of the Lord, as the waters cover the sea.
And they preached until one day the good news made it to me.

A little black girl living in the ghetto,
from a broken home and a broken life
whose daddy was a preacher who beat his wife.
But God had a plan.

To be continued

Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Fifth Love

My first love was a joke
he was just trying to score
My second love was full of passion
but made me feel like a whore

They say third times a charm
but that third love caused emotional harm
My forth love pushed me to my breaking point
But I made it through

Fifth love is my best love
So glad I finally met you

Don't give up on love
Press through the pain
When true love comes around
You will never be the same

So glad you're my fifth love
Cause I learned some things along the way
Learned to walk away from bad love
And not settle for a life of pain

When the right man comes your way
You will never be the same

Fifth love is my best love
So glad I finally met you

Don't give up on love
Press through the pain
When true love comes around
You will never be the same

So glad I met you baby
Glad you came my way
Your love is the best love
So glad you're here to stay


Saturday, June 28, 2014

My Desire

To know love is my desire
To be touched by love
To share joy, sorrow,
hope for tomorrow

To know love is my desire
To see your smile
hear your voice calling my name
My life will never be the same

To know love is my desire
to be held, caressed, knowing you care
in a deep, real way
our lives we'll share

My heart's dream is to know true love
the kind that doesn't hurt or cause pain
To know love in this life is my desire
My life will never be the same

To know love is my desire
To see your smile
hear your voice calling my name
My life will never be the same


Black Girl © (All rights reserved)

The Beginning 

It all began in eternity. He was the most beautiful creature of them all. His wing span reached farther than any other angel.  His light glowed and glistened with the colors of the rainbow that surrounds the throne. He wore all the precious stones as his royal robe. He was covered with the ruby, topaz, diamond, sapphire, onyx, and jasper. His robe had the most intricate gold work, woven like golden threads, with every precious jewel laid meticulously in its settings.  He flashed like lightning as his massive wings covered the very throne of God, the Most High God. He danced and sang as he made majestic music, walking up and down in the stones of fire that surround the emerald throne like molten lava. He was the son of the morning. He was music personified. When he moved the sound of his horns filled the atmosphere. When he bowed down in worship the orchestra that was within him swept over the Kingdom and all the living creatures bowed down in unison to worship the Living God, the Most High God. Because of his beauty and his riches he became lifted up. One dark speck entered his heart. He became prideful. He thought they were worshipping him. But when he realized that he was not the object of their worship, he became mad. Every move he made, made him mad. He walked, and stringed instruments struck their cords. He turned, and the sound of the trumpet oozed from his pores as living worship to the only living God, the Most High God. He wanted it for himself. He was mad, so mad. He was created to worship, not to be worshipped, so he became, demented, deranged, crazed. He was so raving mad that he decided to dethrone God. This angel of light really thought that he could pull it off. He said in his heart "I am God." And in his insane mind he became god. And so he worshipped himself.

 When all the sons of God, the Most High God, gathered around the throne they bowed down, and he, Lucifer, bowed down. They sang worthy, worthy, worthy and he danced and lifted himself up as they worshipped. The atmosphere became fragrant like a spiced rose moving in its essence. It was living fragrance just like the living music and light of heaven. Everything in heaven is alive. The sweet smelling rose danced with living light, as each majestic musical note leaped and spun until every living thing lifted up its voice and praised the Most High God who sits on the throne.

And he thought within his heart, "I will become like the Most High. I will set my throne above his throne. I will take this holy mountain and all this glory will be mine."  So he plotted and planned to take the Kingdom of Heaven away from God, the Most High God.

The failed coup d'├ętat

 He was a prince who wanted to be King. Prince Lucifer became crafty, sinister, lewd, wicked. It was because of his beauty that he was able to convince one hundred billion angels to follow him. They worshipped him as if he were God, and that was not enough. He wanted all of creation to worship him. His kingdom of worshippers was only one third of God's Kingdom.  His lust for worship could not be satisfied until he alone was God.

 Lucifer with his princes, captains, and imps gathered their forces to fight against Almighty God. One hundred billion Angels mounted their horses. Suddenly!  In one blazing flash of light! Prince Michael slapped Lucifer off his steed and with one flap of his mighty wing he swept one hundred billion angels out of the Kingdom of God. They fell like lightning!  Down, down, down they fell, through the universe, the ionosphere, the stratosphere and troposphere, until they hit the ground face down in the dust of the earth.

 Something happened to this rebellious horde as they fell down from heaven to the dust of the earth. They lost their light. They became darkness. And darkness moved upon the face of the earth. Satan was mad, so mad that he commanded his forces to destroy the earth. His princes stomped the mountains into the oceans.  The rulers of darkness pulled the banks of the mighty Mississippi until she overflowed and flooded the entire continent of North America. His imps took the Red Sea, the Sea of Galilee and all the lakes of Africa and cast them into the Nile River. Her waters covered the continent of Africa. All the oceans became one. The waters that gave life to earth's creatures now chocked the life out of them. All the living creatures of the earth drowned as Satan and his armies vandalized the planet. So Satan moved his kingdom into the stratosphere and troposphere. And darkness was upon the face of the deep.

 As a result of such cataclysmic chaos, the planet rocked and reeled, it moaned and groaned like a mother who had witnessed the death of her first born child. The prince of the air put out her light and now she was shrouded in darkness. For eons darkness covered the earth. 

The Beginning of Time

And God said "let us go down and see what Satan has done."  And the earth was without form and void and darkness was upon the face of the deep and the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters. And God said "LET there be light!"

When Satan and his evil army heard the voice of Almighty God, they fled in horror. And light shined on planet earth once again.  Michael, Gabriel and all the princes of God rushed to the balcony of heaven to watch the Creator restore planet earth. They beckoned the heavenly choir to come and see. And soon all two hundred billion angels stood and witnessed the magnificent splendor of creation.

And God, the Only Wise God, recreated the earth with his word. He commanded the heavens to hover over the earth. He called forth the dry land and separated the rivers, streams, lakes and oceans. At the voice of God the earth brought forth grass and herbs and all kinds of trees. He spoke and the sun, moon, and stars appeared. God commanded the sun to govern by day and the moon by night. They were created to rule over the seasons. God, the great and mighty God, spoke, and the waters were filled with living creatures. At his word the earth was repopulated with all kinds of sea creatures, birds, beast and creeping things.

The sons of God watched with wonder and amazement. The heavenly choir sang Hallelujah! Two hundred billion angels clapped their hands and flapped their majestic wings. The sound of rejoicing filled the heavens and the earth as the stars of God shined in glorious splendor. And Satan cringed in fear and horror at the sight of earth made whole, totally and completely restored as if his violent rape had never occurred. And he was mad, so mad.

 God looked at the earth and saw that it was good. And God said "Let us make man in our image, after our likeness, and let them have dominion over all the earth." So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him, male and female created he them. With his tender hand God scooped up the dust of the ground and formed man. He shaped him and formed him to look like Almighty God. And the creator kneeled down as he looked into the face of man and breathed into him the breath of life. The substance of God was released from the mouth of God into the nostrils of man. His breath is alive as everything about God is alive. And in his breath he deposited within man, his spirit. The living spirit of God now dwelt in man. And man became a living soul. God picked up the man and took him into eternity. While in eternity God caused all the beast of the earth to pass before man. And man was given the privilege of naming every creature, every creature that dwells in the earth.

 So God the creator prepared for man a special place. He called it The Garden of Eden. In this garden man walked and talked with God. He walked between heaven and earth into eternity whenever God came to visit him. And God said "It is not good for man to be alone, I will make him a wife." He caused a deep sleep to come upon the man and took out of his side a rib. And out of the dust of the ground he formed woman. He made her from the rib bone of Adam. He shaped her and molded her and placed in her a womb to bring forth children. God gently nudged the man and he awakened from his sleep. When he opened his eyes he saw the woman dressed in white light. She was clothed with the majestic light of the living God. Her light was the same light as his, they were clothed in the splendor of God. For God crowned them with his glory and honor. And now man was the most beautiful creature of them all. And Satan was mad, so mad.

 Now the Lord God placed in Eden, fruit trees, and he told man that he could eat from every tree in the garden except the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. The tree of the knowledge of good and evil stood in the middle of the beautiful garden that God had prepared for man, right next to the tree of Life.  One day Adam and his wife, Eve, for that is what he called her, were picking fruit to eat. Everything that God made was good, very good. And Satan entered the serpent. It was a magnificent creature, his skin was iridescent with all the colors of the rainbow; the same colors that Lucifer once illuminated when he danced and worshipped before the throne of God, the Most High God.

 Satan knew that it was because of pride that he had fallen and he plotted to plant that same seed in the heart of man.  He chose his words very carefully "do you want to be like God?" he asked the woman. "We are already like God, we are made in his image" She replied. "Then why did he tell you not to eat of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil?" Before she could answer he interjected "it is because he knows that if you eat from that tree that you will be like him, you will know all things, good, and evil."  And so she looked at the tree and examined it. It was lovely, its fruit was luscious and fragrant. She said within herself "this fruit will make me wise, I will be just like the Most High God." and she took of the fruit thereof and did eat, and gave also to her husband and he did eat. As soon as they disobeyed God, the glory departed. Their light diminished. The majesty and splendor that surrounded them returned to God; and they were naked and ashamed.

 Something happened when man disobeyed God. There was a transfer of power. Keys were exchanged in the spirit realm. Those keys were released from the hands of Adam into the hands of Satan. And now Satan, the most wicked of them all, took over planet earth. He set up his Kingdom to rule God's most precious creation, man. That old devil, Satan, assigned territory to his princes and they became principalities over regions. His imps, now known as demons took possession of men's souls. And all of creation groaned and moaned for the sons of God who had fallen. Man was now death doomed, mortal. But God had a plan.

The Banishment

The day Adam disobeyed God his vision became limited. It was as if a veil had been placed over his eyes and he could only see the material realm. The spirit realm was now hidden. Adam and Eve made a feeble attempt to hide their nakedness by covering themselves with fig leaves. At that exact moment the voice of God came walking in the garden. "Adam where are you?" God's voice whispered through the trees and shrubs, it gently glided up and encircled Adam and Eve's exposed bodies. "Why are you hiding?" His tender voice queried. "Because I am naked" "Who told you, you were naked?" "The woman that you gave me, told me to eat of the fruit from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, and when I ate the fruit, my eyes became darkened for I saw our nakedness. I felt ashamed, because of my shame, I made these coverings for us."  "Because you chose to ignore my word, you have brought a curse upon the whole earth (world). The ground is cursed and shall bring forth weeds and thorns. The beast of the field are cursed and will devour one another. The woman will desire to be ruled by you and in sorrow she will bring forth children.  By the sweat of your brow you will work the ground from whence you came, you will till the soil and it will resist you, until it overcomes you, and the dust of the earth will rise up against you, to bring you down to the grave. The curse will war against you until the seed of the woman crushes his head. Then God looked at the serpent. The blaze of his piercing eyes burned the legs right off the serpent’s body, for all serpents before the fall of man walked upright. And you, you will eat the dust of the earth until the end of time. Then God looked at Satan, for Satan thought that he had disguised himself so well that God would not recognize him. "The seed of the woman will crush your head and you will bruise his heel."  Satan ran away in horror. He flew into his dark, dank and dreadful lair terrified at the words of Almighty God. "Seed of the woman, seed of the woman, what does he mean, seed of the woman? Crush my head, crush my head, what does he mean, the seed of the woman shall crush my head?" And Satan was mad, so mad.

God killed a lamb and cut away his hide. From the hide, still wet with the blood of the slain lamb, God made for Adam and Eve, coverings. He drove them out of the garden that he had prepared for them into the sweltering hot wilderness. And at the portal now hidden from man, God placed a mighty angel with a blazing sword to prevent man from entering the garden and eating of the fruit from the tree of life. "If he eats from the tree of life he will live forever as a fallen spirit just like Satan" said Almighty God.

Adam loved his wife Eve and she conceived.
When her time to deliver came,
She screamed and wailed in pain.
She pushed and moaned.
She pushed and groaned.
She pushed and in her sorrow she cried out "O God help me!"
And God visited Eve.
Once again the angels peered over heaven's balcony
as God interacted with man.

At that exact moment her child sprang forth from the birth canal. His cry seemed to fill all the earth. It was the first time the cry of a newborn baby kissed the fresh breeze of the now restored planet.

 "What is it, what is this thing?" Satan asked his peons.
"It is a man child."
"A man child."
"What is a man child?"
"Is this the seed of the woman that will crush my kingdom?"
"How can this puny little thing crush your kingdom? It is only the son of Adam and Eve." 
"How do you know what it is, how do you know it is their son, how do you know?"
"I heard them say so."
"But how do they know, how do they know what it is?!"
"They still talk to God when they offer those burnt sacrifices to him" answered his lieutenant.”
"Why does God talk to man?”
"What is man that God is concerned about him? Or the son of man that God visits him?" Said Satan and the heavenly host (in unison) as God assigned an angel to the newborn child.

In those days mortals lived for hundreds of years. They married and intermarried until they populated the earth. God continued to visit man and guide him by his spirit. And Satan was mad, so mad. Satan and his dark kingdom reigned clandestinely over the whole world. He vowed to destroy God's newest creation, man. And so he turned brother against brother. Husband against wife. Father against son, and mother against daughter. He was the mastermind behind every war. Every human conflict had Satan as its progenitor. He sent plagues upon the earth, Black Death, yellow fever, bubonic plague, AIDS. And yet man continued to multiply. Satan instigated wars; the opium wars, the French revolution, War World War One, World War Two, the Korean Conflict, The war of Vietnam, Iraq, and Iran, the attack on the World Trade center. He turned man against man until man began to live in fear and paranoia. World leaders prepared for war secretly. Weapons of mass destruction were invented to destroy the planet at the push of a button. Yet with all his evil devices, Satan could not stop man and woman from bringing forth sons and daughters. In desperation Satan declared "I will destroy the woman, I will crush her, weaken her, lessen her, invalidate her, until she is the least of them all. And then I will destroy her seed, her precious seed will never crush my kingdom, I will reign forever."

The Seed of the Woman

(The choir of The Church of the First Born sings the Hallelujah Chorus)
Hallelujah, hallelujah,
For the Lord God Omnipotent reign-eth,
Hallelujah, hallelujah,
For the Lord God Omnipotent reign-eth,
And He shall reign forever and ever,
And he shall reign forever and ever
Forever and ever,
Hallelujah, hallelujah,
For-eh-eh-ver and ever
King of Kings and Lord of Lords
King of Kings and Lord of Lords
Forever and ever
Amen, amen, amen, amen….
Ah men!

Dana, Wanda, Freddie, Tameka, and Dawn meet in the choir room to put away their robes after Pastor Jenkins gave the benediction.  (Dana, Freddie, and Tameka make small talk as Tameka eavesdrops on Dawn and Wanda.)

"Service was beautiful today, Pastor really preached..." Freddie said to Dana

Wanda and Dawn step away from the others.
"Did you take the test?"

“Not yet"

"you're supposed to take it first thing in the morning"

"Girl not any more I can pee on the stick anytime and it will tell me if I'm pregnant or not" 

Wanda and Dawn rush to Wanda's car. 

 "Slow down, what is the hurry"

"I can't wait to find out if you are pregnant or not"

 Dawn flushed the toilet as she came out of the bathroom.

"It has a pink line, I guess I'm pregnant" Dawn burst into tears.

"Why are you crying?"

"My granddaddy would turn over in his grave if he knew that I'm pregnant out of wedlock"

"What? Out of wedlock! Girl nobody says that anymore. God is the giver of life, the angels in heaven are rejoicing."

 (Back at the church)

Tameka whispers to Freddie and Dana-

"Did you hear Dawn and Wanda?"

"No, I wasn't listening"

"She asked her if she took the test"

"What test?"

"I bet she's pregnant"

"And if she is its none of your business"

"My daddy would put her out of the church if he was alive"

"That’s why he is not alive, putting people out of the church for being human, God don't like ugly, even if it’s the Pastor"

"This is a holiness church, if they can't live holy then they can leave"

"You act like God is mad at us for being human, we all have a purpose, and if Dawn is pregnant then that child has a God given purpose"

(Flash back)

Five year old Tameka ran into the living room.

"I'm telling mommy and daddy on you, you peed on me!"

"Please don't tell" cried Junior.

"MOMMY!! Junior peed on me"

 "Junior did what?!"
"He asked me if I wanted to know how to make babies, then he said now lay down and take off your panties. Then he laid on my butt and peed on me!"

Johnny, Tameka's daddy tied eight year old Junior to the bedpost, and beat him with an extension cord. He beat him for half an hour. Finally, Jean could not take her son's screams any longer. "Johnny that’s enough, stop it right now!" Tameka never told on Junior again, she was afraid that her daddy would kill him next time. Junior touched Tameka in her sleep when she was six. He peeked through the crack in the bathroom door when she was seven. He pulled her dress up and ran, when she was eight. By the time Tameka was nine...she rolled up her skirt and switched her hips from left to right when she walked (when her mother and father were not looking). On the first day of school at Webber Junior High, Tameka walked into Mrs. Williams' homeroom class and sat in the seat next to Brian Williams. (Brian had the deepest dimples and his big afro made him look like Michael Jackson). She hiked up her skirt before she sat down. She folded her legs and smiled. Everything about twelve year old Tameka was sensual, her smile, her laugh, the way she rolled her eyes...she stuffed her bra and painted her lips red to feel pretty, sexy, wanted.

(Tameka and Dawn are seated at an all-you-can-eat restaurant) 
"All these young people think about is sex; Sex, sex, sex. Then they come to church and sing in the choir like they are little angels."

"You know Tameka, The church is just where the young people should be, they need love, unconditional love, and if the church doesn't show them that kind of love then what are we here for?"

Tameka bowed her head and prayed over her food, in a loud voice.

"Lord we thank you for this food we are about to receive for the nourishment of our bodies in Jesus name Amen." 

 Everyone in the restaurant looked embarrassed or annoyed.

"Why do you have to parade your holiness, Tameka?"

"I am a child of God I don't care who knows it. How is James acting?"

"He came home from work yesterday and cussed me and the girls out."

"For what?'

"He never needs a reason, he just cusses and fusses, I think he is trying to drive us crazy."

(flashback  1964)

Fourteen year old James walked into the thirty seven year old prostitute's bedroom. She was the same height as he. Her disheveled black hair was curled in some places and bushy in others. It smelled of Bergamot and dirty straightening comb. Her breasts once round and firm, hung under her nearly sheer t-shirt. Her breath entered his nostrils with the aroma of strong beer. The room smelled like old mildewed carpet that had never been vacuumed. Shabby red curtains hung from one small window. A dingy gray shade clapped against the dirty window panes as the wind whistled through the cracks. She took a deep drag from her cigarette and taking his hand in hers, walked him over to the bed. The smoke from the cigarette formed a dark cloud over the dingy, dusty, queen size bed. A mouse the size of a woman's fist ran across the headboard, as five cock roaches scurried over her half-finished dinner plate. 

 "Is this your first time?"

"Uh, yeah"

"Your brothers told me today is your birthday"

"Uh yeah"

"Then happy birthday baby boy"

She pulled his shirt over his shoulders, over his head. He felt scared and curious all at the same time. Her kiss was the kiss of death, her fingers gripped his body and her tongue rolled over his lips like sweet dripping honey. James hated her. He hated his brothers for bringing him here. He hated his sisters because they were just like her. And he hated his mother.

Every time James tried to urinate he cried, the pain hurt so bad. It burned like fire.
"I must be dying, she gave me something that hoe, that nasty, stankin’ hoe."
"You just a nasty, stankin’ hoe!"

"James I am tired of you calling me a hoe, is your Mama a hoe?"

"Yeah, she a hoe."

“What about your sisters, are they hoes?"

"Yeah, all women are hoes."

"Eww, I hate you!”

Before she realized what she was doing. Dana picked the dinner plate up off the table and threw it at his head. James ducked just in time.

"Hate is a strong word" James said calmly. Dana cried. James smirked. They had only been married two months. It was as if James stepped out of his body and Satan stepped in. Dana had been saved seventeen years.
“How did I let this snake fool his way into my life?” she thought.

 (Present 1999)
 “Well, what is it that you are doing that makes him fuss so much?”
“Listen Tameka, I told you, I don’t do anything. James acts like he hates me.  He was sitting at the dining room table this morning reading his bible before I left for church.”

When James and Dana first got married James attended church with Dana every Sunday, and he always came home mad. He felt as if Dana was telling all of his secrets to the pastor, and for that reason he hated her. When in reality, it was God who told the secrets of James' heart to the pastor as he preached. James stopped attending church, trying to avoid the voice of God, and his conscience.

Dana walks into the dining room where James is sitting at the table reading his bible.

"I'm leaving for the 8:00 service. If you want, I can get the girls ready and we can all go to the 11:00 service together."


“What did you call me James?”


“I’m tired of you callin’ me a bitch, I’m on my way to church and you sitting there reading your bible out loud so the whole house can hear you, and call me a bitch! What are you reading your bible for? When you going to change?!”
“The kids are awake, they can hear you.”

“Take em’ wit’ you, then, hoe.”

Dana slammed the door and ran to the car with tears streaming down her face. She raced to church to hear the sermon as if her life depended on it.

To be continued